Vanish in the world around me
Leaving ash and bone
My crown of thorns that shows no mercy
But it's my own
I grace these walls with all my failures
What have I become?
I think it's time for my forgiveness
Lick these wounds to heal
I'm losing faith, the silent poison
Pain I'd like to feel
I know it's time
Lay down, surrender
Someone take control
Cause I'm afraid to love
Cause I'm afraid I'll leave
I'm living with these lies
That only I believe
And I don't want to walk
But I don't want to run
Cause I'm afraid of failing
In front of everyone
Hold me down and hurt my feelings
I won't do the same
I'll cry in silent disappointed
Taking all the blame
But darkest hour always finds me
Pulling far away
Cause I'm afraid to win
Cause I don't wanna lose
And I'm afraid of falling
Under harsh review
And I'm afraid to live
And I'm too tired to try
I hide behind these shadows
Turn off all the lights
This never ending longing feeling
Waiting to be loved
I still believe in "In forever"
But it never comes
I'm afraid to love
Cause I'm afraid I'll leave
I'm living with these lies
That only I believe
And I'm afraid to walk
But I don't wanna run
And I'm afraid of hurting
Myself and everyone
